#still working on ask blog stuff when i can find time energy and focus

[asktotallyhuman]

//THE RAFFLES CLOSED

ill be dming the winner once i select them.

REMEMBER!! You may choose ONE (1) character to be drawn in my style!

[soaps-mohawk]

So...

I've been doing some thinking about a couple of things.

This blog has grown considerably, even from its start and I appreciate each and every one of you so much. Your support never ceases to amaze me and I owe all of you a lot for giving me something to focus on this year instead of spiraling into insanity.

But

Things have gotten a tad bit overwhelming recently between trying to run the blog and trying to write. I find myself either having to ignore the blog to get writing done, or sacrifice writing time and energy to spend time on the blog and keep up with all the replies/reblogs/asks etc. Definitely not complaining, you all never cease to amaze me.

But, I am just one person and my brain only has so much power right now. So, I'm planning to take some (more) time off each week right now while I focus on writing and planning since we're getting into some serious plot stuff soon. So I'm planning to be on the blog three days a week for a while: Saturday, Sunday, and Thursday. That gives me some time to get some writing done as well as some time to rest my brain.

Saturday and Sunday of course to post the chapter and respond to replies and reblogs so I don't get super behind. Monday I'll have some asks queued up as well as maybe a few reblogs. I'll still use the queue Tuesday and Wednesday for reblogs/asks with spoilers as usual. Thursday I'll be on the blog answering asks from Monday - Wednesday as well as things I get that day. I'll queue up a few things for Friday since that day gives me a little break between to prepare for the weekend and posting the chapter.

I'll probably add more days as time goes on. You can still send in asks on the days I'm gone, but just know I won't see them or respond to them until later in the week. I already get behind by a couple days on asks anyway so that's not much of a change.

Don't feel bad for sending them either, I love getting all these asks, I just tend to get behind on days I spend more time writing.

The second order of business

has to do with my taglist. Most of you probably haven't noticed (which I don't blame you lol) but my taglist has gotten very big. Very, very big. It's just over 230 people right now, and I'm sure there will be others asking to join. It's quite time consuming to do all of these tags for every chapter (especially since we can't tag in blocks anymore) so I've been doing some thinking into how I can make it easier for me, and for you.

I know there's at least one blog I've heard of, though I'm sure there's more, that have made side blogs that they have people follow and turn on notifications for and just make a post on that blog when they post a chapter or fic, etc. I've been considering doing that since the taglist is a lot of work and time.

I've also seen blogs that have side blogs that just post chapters/fics and nothing else. I know quite a few of you only follow for the fic, so if anyone is interested, I could put together a side blog like that as well that you can follow and get notifications from instead of having to follow this blog and having to go through the probably 100 posts that I make a day 😂 (at least it feels that way for me)

Having a separate blog for the taglist too would allow me to schedule posts so I can have them come out a bit earlier than I get up for those of you across the world who stay up to read and have to wait for me to post in the morning when I get up (or later like today because I slept in). Of course Ao3 will get posted later because I can't schedule posts there, but at least for Tumblr I can have things post earlier.

So let me know what you think about the taglist side blog and the possible just chapters/fics side blog. Feel free to send in asks (anonymously or not) with your opinion. I might not answer them all (not tonight because my brain is fried and honestly i'm not sure if this is even comprehensible English) but I will at least use them to make the decision (or make a post with all of them and answer it as just one).

[rustbeltjessie]

I haven’t made a pinned post in a while, but since it’s my birthday month and I’m struggling right now, I figured it’s a good time to make one.

First, let me introduce myself. I’m Jessie Lynn McMains, aka Rust Belt Jessie. I’m a writer (poetry and prose), artist, zine-maker, spoken word performer, occasional musician, small press publisher, and general jack of several creative trades. I’m queer—bi/mspec and nonbinary (I use they/them, she/her, and he/him pronouns). I’m disabled and neurodivergent, and the parent of two kiddos. Politically? Well, I consider myself an anarchist at heart, but I still vote in every election. I think everyone should be able to have enough food, and a safe place to live, and yeah, even a few ‘unnecessary,’ fun things, just by virtue of being alive. As for the rest of my beliefs, you can probably garner a general idea if you peruse my blog even a little.

Now, onto the nitty-gritty. We had about ten days between when our last month’s food money ran out and when this month’s came in. It has been refilled as of today, so I don’t have to worry about that for the moment, but because of that gap, I had to spend money I’d set aside for other stuff on food. I paid our rent and energy bill for the month, but I’m a couple months overdue on our Internet bill, and I don’t want to risk that getting shut off. And then, well, it’s December. I’m trying to buy my kids some Christmas presents, and it’s not just my birthday month—my youngest kiddo’s birthday is four days before Christmas. Because of all this, I’m also way behind on writing stuff. I owe my zine subscribers a new issue (I didn’t send anything at all in November), and I’m trying to finish up some pieces to record for my new spoken word EP, but I’ve had to focus on day job and side-hustle stuff that’s more immediately lucrative, so I haven’t been able to dedicate much time to finishing these projects.

If you’d like to throw some $$ my way so I can get some gifts for my kiddos, keep my Internet on, get back to my writing, and maybe have a less-stressful birthday month than I did last year, I have V*nmo (JessieLynnMcMains) and P*yp*l (coeur.de.fantome [at] gmail[dot]com).

But hey, hey, I’m not just asking for something for nothing! I have a lot of stuff available on Ko-fi (rustbeltjessie), including print books and zines, ebooks and zines, and pins, and you can also hire me as an editor or commission a custom mini-collage. And almost everything is sliding scale/pay-what-you-can, some with a minimum price, others starting at $0.

And that zine subscription? It’s still not too late to get in on it, even though the year is almost over. If you sign up now, you’ll receive all previous issues, along with this month’s when it’s finished, and the final two will be mailed out in January.

Or perhaps you’d like to buy or commission something I don’t officially have for sale. Maybe you’d like to buy one of my existing pieces of art? Or commission a custom pin, designed by me, based on the band/film/fandom/whatever of your choice? Or commission a custom postcard poem/art piece, on the subject of your choice? Or have me write you a custom mini-zine, on the subject of your choice? I can do all those things! DM me, and we’ll work something out!

Oh, and I mentioned above that I was working on a new spoken word EP? Go check out my full-length spoken word album, Self-Portrait With Ghosts and Trains, which was released by Hello America Stereo Cassette in July 2021. You can find it at helloamerica.bandcamp.com. (I do get royalties from that release periodically, but it’s not as immediate as if you purchase something directly from me.)

All that said, I know times are tough for most people right now, so please don’t feel obligated to purchase anything or otherwise send money my way. And, as always, even just a few dollars helps, as does reblogging/boosting this post. 🖤

[ciaossu-imagines]

hope you’re recovering well <3

Thank you so much for the well-wishes, my lovely anon <3 I’ve been resting a lot and am recovering nicely. I don’t have both of my hands back fully yet and it took me the most of a full day off to chicken peck this out with one hand, so please excuse any typos or anything. I should have, within a couple weeks, both of my hands back and I’m looking forward to that immensely. The time off work I had to take to recover and the fact that I can’t do much at the moment besides relax and rest outside of work has actually been a godsend. I feel better, mentally, than I have in a long time and I’ve managed to come to terms with knowing that, even when I get my hands back, I still won’t be able to type and write at the speed I used to. That it’ll take months, maybe even half a year, before my former speed back and finished up with everything that I had been working on. I’m super excited for all of it and I still have all my former plans. As some of you might have noticed, I’ve taken off my commission post which was pinned and won’t be taking commissions until I feel ready for it. Right now, I just want to focus on the fun and excitement that I’m feeling towards writing, which was, I will admit, something I’d lost for quite a while. I’m looking forward to writing fanfics that I have ideas for, looking forward to writing requests for the blog that have been sitting, but I’m also going to be doing so at my own pace and not making writing the sole thing in my life. I’ve been allowing myself time to read and watch things, especially the things that are on my fandom list and it’s really been re-awakening a lot of that love, both for the fandoms and the characters themselves, and for the opportunities to write for them. I’m going to be allowing myself more of that instead of pushing myself so hard so really…recovering very well. Quicker mentally, slower physically, but still recovering.

I had initially planned, about mid-year, to do a big event kind of focusing on some of the lesser-loved fandoms on here, just to get more chances to write them, to branch out into those fandoms some more, and to showcase how amazing they are. I stockpiled headcanons and a couple scenarios for them, anywhere from 25-35 posts for all the fandoms that weren’t super-popular and, to give me some freedom to take my time, I’ve had a friend help me out with queueing them up, and those will comprise my queue for a little bit. When I can add to the queue myself, I’ll shuffle them up, but for now the first month will be mostly 07-Ghost writing, followed by The Covenant, I think? I’m not entirely sure what order we went in, to be honest. On top of the queue, when I find the time, energy, and feel up to it, I’ll be posting stuff outside the queue as I work on them and will hold mini-events for interactions. The ask box is open again to all requests and I look forward to being well enough to have that first night back on here, interacting with all you lovelies, and just enjoying my time with the characters and in the fandoms I love.

[roo-bastmoon]

Incredibly lucky to even be here

I just realized, exactly one year ago today (May 11th) I was diagnosed with endometrial stromal sarcoma and given less than a 34% chance of survival. I'm incredibly, miraculously lucky to be well and cancer-free today. I owe that to my amazing doctors, and also in a small way to BTS.

The moment I got told I had cancer, I immediately decided to only entertain thoughts of complete health and victory. It was a pure and immediate defense mechanism and I stuck to it. So no sad songs or movies or TV shows. No online drama. No negative nellies or naysayers. No stressful projects at work. No arguments, no entanglements, no regrets.

For months, I would focus only on laughter and quality time with loved ones and things that brought me joy, even as I had to deal with practical stuff like creating a will and a pet trust and filling out life insurance forms and undergoing test and surgeries.

BTS (and Jimin, as my "recruiter") gave me moments of grace and beauty and art and warmth and giggles--and kind ARMYs gave me a sense of belonging and community, especially during a dark and terrifying time, when in the quiet of the early morning hours, the sense that my own body was my worst enemy would eat at all my mental defenses. I could switch on my phone, go to the timeline, and ARMY and BTS would be there.

If I seem to be very Pollyanna-ish or boringly polite these days, it's because I decided one year ago to focus on what I want instead of giving energy to what I don't. I know bad things are very real and they need to be confronted--of course! But I also know that depression, anger, and fear can erode the myelin sheath wrapped around our nerve endings and weaken the walls in the chambers of our hearts; that toxic emotions can bleach our hair of color and rob our nails and skin of suppleness; that negativity can lengthen our immuno-response times to bruises and cuts.

So if other folks get a thrill, a hit of adrenaline, from drama and trash talking in our fandom, more power to them, I guess. It must serve them in some way I don't understand. Me? I find meanness and pettiness draining and damaging. So I'll never do that. I'll never rudely call someone out in public or go on their blog to rant or snipe openly about members or fellow ARMY. I will just keep myself to myself and do my best to be authentic and kind and hard working.

Doesn't always work. I'm human. I will absolutely make mistakes (case in point--the campaign idea yesterday that could have really harmed Jimin. I didn't think about all the consequences and I'm so grateful to the people who patiently set me straight.) Please know that if you ever feel strongly I'm going in the wrong direction, you can always speak to me--I'll ask a million questions, I'll hear you out, and I'll try to be flexible in my mindset. You don't have to hide behind throw-away accounts or talk to others about me. I will do my best to always be kind and act in good faith with everyone. (But I'll likely still make some mistakes, because my intentions are good but I myself am not perfect.)

By and large, I feel I'm just really astronomically lucky to be here. I know the kind of cancer I had is very sneaky and could come back at any time. So how I spend my time left in this life matters to me. I want to be a source of good in the world, help other people, experience bliss and celebrate good things. I don't want to be selfish or destructive. If I start to go that way, I know good friends will gently call me back.

Like BTS, I want to connect with people and help build something worthy. So if you're on board with that, let's be friends. And if you're not, let's part amicably.

I just... figured I should probably say that... out loud. So that's that on that.

Love you guys,

Roo

[veryfandomobsessed]

Finally, a blog introduction!

About Me!

Hi! You can call me DJ or VFO! I am a minor, older than 4 of course so please stay aware of that. The only Socials I have are just a Tumblr and a Discord. But if I ever do get more I will add it here! I love all types of animation, mostly cartoons and stuff but I will probably have a main focus on a show but that doesn't mean I don't still love the others. Something that I will also do is draw my persona, usually in response to an ask but it represents basically my reaction to things, and yes sometimes I will be lazy and not draw the glasses and sometimes I will so interpret it how you wanna. I am definitely a big music freak so if you wanna suggest anything I'm all ears! I am Latina but I do not know Spanish despite me taking it for 5+ years but currently I've been learning Japanese. I also love plenty of stuff in the ocean and anything that's ancient lookin. I'm pretty laid back but somehow also hyper and I could yap about a character or something specific for hours, but I can hold back. I can't really think of anything else to say about myself so..

About the blog!

I started this blog about 2 years ago and it has been quite the journey from where I started to where I am now, with posting nothing to actually starting to serve up the art that I brew up. This is quite a multi-fandom Art Blog that might focus more on one thing more than others so just a heads up. Enjoy your time here and request stuff when my requests are open! If my ask box says requests closed, it doesn't mean you can't ask me questions. Spam liking is fine, don't worry if your doing to much, it's silly to see!!! Maybe sometime in the future I might make another blog for whatever, specific art, an ask blog, anything along those lines, there will also be occasional reblogs from some of my folk, not folk, and chains.This account is SFW!!

My Art!

Noticeably I put "VFO" on all my pieces of art that I post, if any of it gets reposted or taken without credit please let me know! I work hard on some of the art I do. Adding to the requests things I am busy and don't always have the time or energy to draw them, so if I have time and energy to I will do them! I also might do commissions sooner or later when I figure out a good way to do it. I do both traditional and digital, I mainly use my finger on my phone to draw but I'm trying to do stuff more on a tablet and such! Everyday I'm doing more to improve my art and try to learn as much as I can. My art style ranges a lot but I do try and keep it consistent. sometimes it can look like an entirely different person drew it but whether I draw something cutesy one day and something intense the next day I swear it's still me,I'm just trying to find what style or thingy I'm more used to. Only occasionally there will be blood and stuff included in my art but I will always but a TW to make sure people have a heads up. I also typically use more lighter colors for my drawings but sometimes I will change it so the lines are harsher (ex: black instead of the usual brown I use). You are free to ask me for tips and tricks or questions you have about my art because I love helping and giving some creative ideas!

Thats it!

I hope you have a wonderful Day or Night wherever you may be! Or mid day! Or evening! Military time hour your at!!!

Extra info below:

Discord

To be able to contact my discord, you would have to be somebody who I've interacted with before and I know you're safe to chat with. you can send me your tag in asks WITHOUT being anonymous or in the Tumblr chat so it is clear and confirmed. it is completely my choice if I decide to add you or not.

If there is more info I can think about, I will add it in my next edit, this was made 7/31/24.

Recent Edit: none

[overlyprotectiveheadcounselor]

Intro post

Hello! I'm Marilene, the head counselor of the Selene cabin. Some of my siblings made these so I figured I should join in, especially since we're not using @willows-pjo-ocs as much.

Age: 19

Pronouns: she/they

Sexuality: probably straight? I dont put tok much thought into labels

Godly parent: Selene

Powers: I can 'see' anything that the moon is in line of sight of (one part of the earth in the day the other part at night since thats how day and night work) (nothing underground plus trees and stuff) to a degree. It takes a good bit of energy and focus and stuff since I'm not a goddess. Limited photokinesis and umbrakinesis though I am better at photokinesis. I can shadow travel. Like Kiara, my sister, I can heal. But only at night. I was the one who taught Kiara. I also gain strength from the moon. It does not change when the moon is new, since the moon is still out.

Siblings: @kiaradaughterofselene @sophia-hunter-of-artemis @born-of-moonlight @daughter-ofthe-moontitan @the-little-moonie

I've also adopted @vicious-daughter-of-zeus as my little sister

Ooc under the cut

Hello! I'm the moderator for this blog and @willows-pjo-ocs

My main is @gaygirldoodles

I also run

@kiaradaughterofselene

@southerndaughterofeos

@glykera

@amaiahunterofartemis

@melissathetherapist

@selene-goddess-of-the-moon

I figured it would be easier to use separate blogs for my ocs

anyways backstory stuff before i continue

Marilene has also been at camp for a pretty long time. She is one of the oldest campers there. She arrived at camp when she was maybe 9 and stays there full time. Being the head counselor of the Selene cabin, she cares about her sibling more than anything. When Kiara didn't return from her quest, she spent every moment she could trying to locate her and asking some of the Helios kids to help her. Even when Kiara was still doing the quest as normal she occasionally took a look just to see if she was alive and ok. She did end up having to promise Kiara that she wouldn't be looking too often. She also had to promise Amaia the same thing when she joined the Hunter of Artemis although the protective older sister part of her often made it very difficult not to.

#willow speaks ◇ is for ooc stuff

#willows pjo ocs ♡ and #marilene is cool are for in character stuff

Tag list:

Face claim:

@the-gods-abandoned-us

@arisdaughter

@mache-of-greece

@unhinged-waterlilly

@kaiaalwayswins

@yourlocalfallenstar @son-of-the-moonlight @luci-likes-dinoss @elixs-mythology-corner @bast-the-best26 @emdabitchass @if-chaos-was-a-boy @luck-is-crucial @love-lightning-forethought @the-prince-telemachus @pink-koi-lovejoy @fire-boy-official

[the---hermit]

Hello! I just want to let you know I love your blog! As a university student I find it really motivating especially when it comes to productivity and self care 💗.

I wanted to ask how do you manage your time effectively when it comes to university work and relaxation time?

Hello! Thank you so much!! <33

It's a pretty challenging thing, and I will be honest with you I am still learning how to balance studying and taking time for myself. Especially now that I have started to commute to uni again to go to class, it's proving to be a constant challenge, because I have to change my routines way more often than I'd like. In general I am pretty aware of the moments of the day in which I am more energetic so I try to make to most out of them. I am much more active in the mornings, I don't mind waking up a little earlier it that means I will get more done in the morning and I will be able to stop studying a little earlier. Of course if I have classes I have to work around that, but in general what I try to do is to concentrate more studying hours whan I know I will be more productive. I also plan tasks that will take more mental effort and energy in those hours, and leave the easier tasks for when I know for a fact I will be a little more tired. I also have a no studying after meals rule. For me eating means taking a break, so after lunch I usually take one hour or one hour an a half just for myself, I'll either read or do anything I feel like to relax and just rest. And at night after eating my dinner I refuse to study. I have had this thing ever since I was in high school, after dinner it's my rest time of the day, I go to bed pretty early and I want to enjoy doing nothing before that. Some people study very well at night and I am not one of those people.

Another thing that helps me a lot with managing my time is to set very clear goals. My brain works much better on a weekly scale so it's what I mostly focus on, but I also try to have at least a general idea of my monthly goals. The way I do this is to have a specific monthly page on my bullet journal in which I write down all the studying materials I have to work on (let's say I have to read a book, I write down the page count of the book and the pages of each chapter so that I have a general view of how much I actually have to do). Each week I try to figure out what my priority of the week are and then I focus on that alone. I divide it up in the days according to what I don't have other things to do, and to when I know I will be more focused for a specific task. Generally I do a mid-week check in, in case I have studied more/less than planned. Focusing on one thing at the time has been helping me mentally because I feel less overwhelmed by everything I have to do. (there's a lot I could say about my planning method for uni and I might write a specific post if that's of any interest, I also have this pretty old post on some planning tips in case that can be helpful).

I cannot stress enough how important it is to schedule your rest/relax time in your planning system. I for example decided that I will not be studying on Sundays anymore, and that on Saturdays I am allowed to take more time in the morning whether I want to sleep a bit more or simply take more time to get ready and all. I genuinely write this stuff down in my planner. I have slots of time planned for not studying and not working. My body needs rest and I need time to do other stuff that is not studying and working, and as any other task I make an effort to fit it in my schedule. I know we are pushed into thinking that we should always be working, at the cost of our resting time, but in my self care journay I am learning to give space to what I need to do for myself without feeling guilty about. I know a certain period will be stressful? Well after that I treat myself with one day off, or an activity that I enjoy. During the day as I said I have specific moments in which I just do not study, and it's now become part of my routine to rest.

So to conclude this the most important things for me are:

a clear plan that includes goals and breaks/ time off to rest

figuring out how you work (when you are more focused and energetic and when you feel like you can take breaks and rest)

fequents check-ins to see how much work I have done/how much is left to do (pro tip: if by the end of the week you have already accomplished your weekly goals, instead of pushing yourself to do more consider rewarding yourself with more time off. Treat yourself and do not burn yourself out)

Okay I gave you a super long answer that I am not even sure is super clear (I have not reread it after writing so I apologize if I sound insane). Again if you need anything else my inbox is always open, I am always happy to help even if it's just sharing how I plan my studying and so on. Good luck with your studies and I hope you'll find a good balance between studying and taking time for yourself.

[hollowfaith]

[ indigo ]  when did you first start writing / roleplaying?

[ plum ]  are you more of a dialogue or a description writer?

[ mulberry ]  what tips would you give someone with writer's block?

[ coral ]  give a shoutout to one of your favorite blogs.

🐝  *  ―  𝑪𝑶𝑳𝑶𝑼𝑹𝑭𝑼𝑳 𝑰𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑽𝑰𝑬𝑾. ( send one or more of these to get to know the person behind the blog a little better. )

(these are going to get long so i'll put a readmore to spare the dashboard lol)

[ indigo ]  when did you first start writing / roleplaying?

for writing (stories) i'd say in early middle school when i realized fanfiction was a thing. before that i just did a lot of journaling, or i'd finish a trip with family and write a long essay about everything we did on the trip. anyways when the fanfic itch hit i wrote obsessively and even titled my story journals as i finished them so i could keep them in chronological order. (like i had one named after spring, another for summer, fall, winter, etc. and then a series named after favorite gemstones x flowers). i think i filled 40+ notebooks of various sizes by high school? they're still somewhere in the basement at my parents' place probably.

then i found ff.net and realized people posted their stuff online so i tried that a bit, and when ff.net started getting dated i moved onto ao3. i don't have as much energy or drive to write the crazy crossover AUs i used to do but it's still nice to post there, or make up original short stories for fun. anyways TL;DR i'm always writing something somewhere sometime~

for RP i wanna say...early 2000s? back when forum RPs were a thing. and i don't mean the fancy kind they have now where you can custom-theme your posts, but just plain message boards where you started a topic to make "threads" and replies to that thread made up your interactions, and the rest of the board was divided up so you had locations in one place and character profiles in another, etc etc. they were everywhere and constantly opening and shutting down so i went everywhere too, lol. also signed up for this digimon PbEM RP group where they had a plotline and an all-original crest lineup but you had to make up your own digidestined and digimon and apply to join. then we'd RP on a word doc and email it to the next person in the group to get the story going. it was sooo old school but it was genuinely fun. i also applied to join a livejournal MFRP group but got rejected because my app wasn't good enough hahaha that got me a little scarred so i hid away from MFRP for awhile

(also a special bonus to the time my friends and i RPed as neopets faeries in a composition book we'd pass around in school between periods.)

for tumblr RP i think it was like 2014 or 2015 after a RP hiatus? the messageboards were dead or dying by then and heck if i was going to learn livejournal and its weird system so i joined some ancient chinese themed MFRP group with a similar chinese drama-inspired muse but that shut down within a month so i wandered around until i found a bigger more active group and stuck around there. and now i'm on and off here. :)

[ plum ]  are you more of a dialogue or a description writer?

when it comes to RP, i think i lean more towards description because i need to give context to my muse's lines. but for stories i'm more dialogue heavy, and i enjoy writing exchanges back and forth between characters.

[ mulberry ]  what tips would you give someone with writer's block?

i don't know if i'm the best person to ask but when i'm stuck on writer's block i work on a different...writing project..... you know they all have different vibes and stuff so a change of scenery gives the mind a break and stuff? it's good.

and it works because i still wanna write, i just don't want to write for Thing A so why not Thing B lol.

it also helps to find a focus, most of my writing block woes come because i don't know where/what to do next, so maybe i find a song, a pretty quote, or an icon that gives me the right "vibes" for what i want to express and think up the rest of the post from that.

it also helps to have a smaller goal to work towards even if you don't know how the ending will turn out. for example, if in a thread my A is interacting with your B and i think to myself "well according to what i've read in B's app he'd prolly hate A and think him a prick, so it'd be interesting if A gets a chance to showcase his prick side in this thread eventually," then i'd insert stuff into my replies to gradually make A more annoying and play off what B replies to work towards that "goal."

of course since RP is directed by both sides those mini-goals sometimes get sidetracked, but then it's fun to see in what new direction we take the interaction instead haha

[ coral ]  give a shoutout to one of your favorite blogs.

i can’t stress enough how helpful quotes/musings blogs are for like aesthetics or muse inspirations for me and the nice thing is most of them are still around even if they haven’t updated in years so HERE HAVE THIS POST WITH LINKS TO A BUNCH MORE GREAT MUSINGS POSTS BLOGS

[cosmictulips]

Hello star commander 🌟 I’m really interested in learning more about witchcraft, but I’m also a very skeptical person and faith and believing in gods and stuff like that aren’t very appealing to me. I almost believe in tarot, but only when I’m not thinking too hard about it or I start to be skeptical as I can’t figure out where the tarot messages would come from, it’s frustrating I’m kind of the type of person who needs to see it to believe it. I do however think there is a sort of magic in nature in life force and the fabric of the universe, sort of in a “everything is connected” kind of way. This is how I choose to see tarot for example, as believing in and asking a god or spirit does not vibe with me. But it seems to me that the magic in witchcraft lies mainly in the will and faith of the witch, as in nothing will happen if you don’t believe it will happen. Or am I wrong? Anyway what I wanted to ask you is if you have some ideas for how a beginner, who may not fully believe that it’s possible to get any results from witchcraft, could try some light easy stuff that’s not too hard to mess up and not with a super high goal that seems unrealistic to get results from, so as to get confirmation that it works and slowly become more familiar with how it works?

Fellow Star Cadet!

I've got some good news for you.

I'm the exact same way.

and I've got even better news for you!

witchcraft in of itself isn't a belief system.

it's a craft for a reason. if you do not want to believe in one god, three or a dozen, you do not have to uwu. that's a very christian approach to things and as you go through this journey you'll find that a lot of these beliefs that you have are just because of the way you were raised -either religiously or not. it doesn't matter because christianity in particular has seeped into a lot of our culture , assuming you're from the US that is, and so it can be hard to really tell where it lies but regardless -

You don't need to believe in Tarot to be able to use it. I don't. I use tarot. I trust it. but I don't believe in it. there's nothing to believe. it's a set of cards and you put the magic into it.

and you don't even have to work with gods. you can work with spirits of the land if you're not in a city. hell even in a city, you can still work with spirits. OR you can completely cut the spirit aspect out and just work with whats around you. You can get into astrology, herbalism, .... there's some others. there's some really good blogs around here who don't focus on god worship. and some that do but can help teach you that you don't really need them if you don't want to. really look around.

between you and I, messages from tarot simply come from the fact that you learned what they are. your intuition will tell you the rest. but that you'll have to learn not to be so in your head about and trust your own energy. which, is kind of hard to do when you're skeptical of everything. sometimes you will need to just trust what's happening. and that's rough, I get it. but it works.

my tags should be able to help you as well.

GOOD! that's a great way to think of things! get into cosmic witchcraft. It's planetary based and the best part is, you don't have to work with the roman gods if you don't want to. just channel the planet in of itself.

...well, people see witchcraft differently. some would say that. I kind of say shit happens whether or not you're actively working on it. because you don't have to keep working on your craft for stuff to happens. life moves forward and magic does to. you're not stuck to time and time will certainly keep moving without you. so long as you're willing to take the plunge and meet the universe half way, it'll meet you there too.

I'm a great example of pushing too much and getting the shit smacked out of me. so no, I'd say, sometimes waiting is a good thing because it does bring things forward lmao.

hmm you're asking a lot of me on the question though. for a skeptic, if I say to light a candle and tell it one thing you want, and to start working on that desire, you'll turn around with skepticism and congratulate yourself when the thing happens. or if it doesn't happen you'll be like SEE MAGIC DOESNT WORK!

To be honest, you'll have to open yourself up and see the magic in the mundane before anything spectacular and life changing happens. and even then, I've lost a lot because I've dived deep into spirituality so. and I didn't see the results from all that I've lost until recently. I just kept pleading with my guides to tell me why everything has happened and now, after years of just falling apart, I'm not starting to see my foundations strengthen for once.

I had to start with recognizing my intuition and gut feelings. so maybe you should start with that too. anytime you get the feeling something is wrong, or that it's deja vu. take note of that. let that feeling grow. and then start asking for small signs. ask the universe to show you a dog, or a bird. tell the universe you want to see something bright yellow!

you have to build trust with yourself first. trust yourself that your magic is real and can bring in what you want. some will tell you its all in your thoughts. and while in part that's true, if you start to think negatively, don't think it's going to become negative. just be like, yea but the sun is out, or the rain sounds nice. ya know what I'm saying? really connect and vibe with the area around you no matter how bleak it is.

and also start learning a divination method. really, and I mean really, study tarot or I think in your best case, study astrology. figure out how your chart works, and see how the planets play out in your life. if you go with tarot see how the cards and energies those cards contain can be manifested into your life.

magic starts to grow from those kinds of things. hell get into runes if you want. there's a lot of different methods out there and you don't need to just stick to one ya know what I mean?

Confirmation, like I said in another ask, is going to come from what you're willing to see. if you go into this thinking only negative things about magic, you'll see that it never works. but give it a chance, you'll see it will work.

NOW REMAIN A SKEPTIC THOUGH. HEALTHY skepticism is a good thing. sometimes those flickering lights are actually due to the weather lol. sometimes that bright flame in a candle is just due to the oxygen. but once you can kind of rule that out, you'll start to see the more paranormal side. which is why I try to eliminate those kinds of things in the beginning.

anyway I can ramble on and on but it's your journey to take. I'll be here if you need anything else answered. I hope this helps you in someway.

You've probably already experienced magic before. you might just need to think about it.

[hope-for-the-planet]

I'm coming to your blog directly after having a panic attack about environmental stuff because I don't know where else to go. I'm a teen right now, and I'm scared out of my mind because I'm worried I won't have a future, or the one I have will be so shitty and terrible. everytime I feel better and hopeful after reading an article or something, I see someone online say how we're all fucked, or how this is the last generation to die comfortably. I'm sorry for pinning you with the task of alleviating my anxiety, but I don't know where else to go :(

Hi Anon,

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way and that it took me some time to get to your ask—you and your fears are always welcome here. You have been on my mind since I got this ask as I’ve been thinking about the best way to answer it.

It is deeply unfair that you are already feeling this burden so acutely as a teenager. Please know that you are not alone—there are so many extremely smart, dedicated, and talented people working to make sure that people like you have a future to look forward to. You are inheriting a legacy of generations of older humans who have fought and continue to fight to protect our planet and mitigate climate change. We are in a better situation now than we would have been without their actions and the number of people who care deeply about this issue gets bigger every day.

If you are regularly having panic attacks or anxiety that feels beyond your control, please seek support from friends, family, or a mental health professional—or find a trusted friend or family member to help you access mental health resources if needed. We all need extra support sometimes (myself included!)—mental health professionals can help you build strategies and access resources to keep yourself regulated when you run into major anxiety triggers.

It is completely reasonable to have concerns about what the future will hold—but you absolutely still have a future and the chance to live a meaningful and fulfilling life even in the midst of this crisis. We will face new and different obstacles from past generations, but there is still ample opportunity to mitigate the scope of this crisis, to adapt our communities to weather the challenges of climate change, and to leverage this necessary change to build a better world.

On this journey there will continue to be times when there is bad news and setbacks and difficult change—and this means that cultivating resilience and coping strategies is an important part of building your own adaptability and preventing a constant drain on your mental health.

This includes 1) Building an arsenal of healthy coping strategies and mental health resources that work for you (climate anxiety can be treated with many of the same strategies as other types of anxiety). 2) Avoiding messages of despair and seeking out sources of hope and energy. Surround yourself with people and media that feed your hope, join communities working to make things better, focus on the piece of the puzzle you can help with and don’t dwell on bad news that you can’t do anything about. Anxiety isn’t activism. 3) Even when you get really good at the previous step, there are still times when the world throws setbacks and despair in your face and you have to grit your teeth and choose hope anyway. This is the hard one and it takes time and practice—but this is how you get through those rough patches when there is a slew of bad news and all seems to be for nothing.

On days when the world doesn’t offer hope, hope is a gift you give to yourself. It is the only way we have kept fighting this far and it is the only way we will succeed in the end. Go looking for something to be hopeful about, and if you cannot find it, make it yourself.

Imagining a future for yourself--a future with hope and meaning--is a big part of this.

I’ve linked a few other posts that I hope will help you here: (X) (X) (X) (X) (X) (X) (X) (X) (X) (X)

I hope that this helps you. I wish I had an easy trick to tell you to switch off the anxiety. I wish that I could give you a hug through the internet and tell you that you aren’t alone and we are going to be ok. Please, please take care of yourself <3

[astrobydalia]

🌸OBSERVATIONS!! (finally lmao)🌱

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It's been a long time coming! So happy for spring being finally here! Here's the long ass observation post you guys asked for. Since it's quite a big amount of observations, I've decided it'd be a good idea to number them so that it's easier to reference them. As always, enjoy them!

🌸 1. Lilith in the 2nd house can indicate something fishy going on with the relationship between the native’s parents.

���� 2. Malefic placements such as pluto, chiron, Saturn or Lilith in the 12th indicates a lot of skeletons in the closet when it comes to family and family history

🌸 3. Chiron in Aries/1st house or Leo/5th house is kind of bitch placement. The person basically feels like they can’t be themselves and there’s a lot of self-denial and/or not accepting themselves, how they really are, what they really want, etc. Lots of self-esteem issues

🌱 4. People with sexual placements in the 2nd house (Mars, Venus, Lilith, Eros, ruler of the 8th house) base their self-worth on how sexually attractive they are. If they don't feel sexually desirable to everyone, they feel like they're shit

🌸 5. Lilith is what people think Pluto/Scorpio is!!!! All that stuff about magnetic, sexual and intoxicating but dangerous? Lilith.

🌱 6. Scorpio/Pluto in 4th could mean that the person had to work hard to survive something growing up. It could be poverty, their parents’ expectations, an early trauma, etc. Whatever the situation is, the native felt like they grew up in a high-stress environment where they had to endure and survive

🌸 7. When it comes to degrees, the higher the degree, the bigger or stronger the effect. For example Leo degrees (5º, 17º, 29º) are fame degrees. 5th degree would give small fame, 17th degree would be normal and significant fame or recognition inside the person’s field and 29th degree is moreso widespread or permanent fame

🌱 8. Saturn in the 5th house is a huge indicator of turning your hobby into your job. Also these people can be very awkward in their personality

🌸 9. I’ve noticed people with Neptune in the 6th (maybe 2nd) house may have been hospitalized and if Uranus or Pluto are placed here also indicates getting surgery or operations for health reasons

🌱 10. People with Uranus or Pluto in the 1st, 2nd or conjunct the ASC could get surgery due to aesthetic reason

🌸 11. Mercury dominant people (or strong Gemini energy in the chart) like to have or get things quick and easy. For example they prefer a straight forward summary over an in-depth and elaborated explanation with too many details

🌱 12. Your moon sign shows how you see your past. Your 4th house represent how you see your childhood. But your moon represents under which light you always view your past and everything that has happened in your life in general. It also shows the type of stuff from your past you tend to focus on. Since Cancer and Pisces represent past and remenaicence, that's why Cancer and Pisces moons have trouble getting over the past.

🌸 13. Your 10th house on the other hand is how you see your future. Whenever someone asks you “where you see yourself in 5 years?” your 10th house is the one that’ll be answering that question

🌱 14. Gemini moon/mars are the LEAST likely to hold grudges (unless chart says otherwise)

🌸 15. The house where you have your Neptune indicates the themes you tend to lie about, don’t give much info, say stuff about it that are misleading etc. and in consequence people might not have a clear/correct idea of this part of your life

🌱 16. Virgo risings rarely or basically never pose for pictures. They just look straight forward to the camera, sometimes smile and maybe make a small gesture like putting one hand in their pocket or tilt their head but that’s it. (Virgo = minimalism)

🌸 17. Scorpios really don’t give a single fuck they just DON’T 😭💀 Remember this sign is all or nothing, they either care too or don't care AT ALL

🌱 18. I said it once and I’ll say to a hundred times more: Geminis are not two-faced, it’s LIBRA!! Seriously Libras are the FAKEST people I’ve ever met. Why? Because it's ruled by the planet of love (Venus), which means Libra has a knack for being liked by everyone and making everyone feel liked. HOWEVER Libra is an AIR sign and air represents mind, NOT feelings. In conclusion, Libra can make you feel "loved" (venus) and still not give a damn about you bc its air nature makes them prone to emotional detachment. That's why they are able to roast you and make it look like they're complimenting you, specially when they have Scorpio mercury.

🌸 19. Just like you look at where’s the ruler of your rising sign to get more info on your rising, check the ruler of your Sun sign for more info on your personal identity (check sign and house). For ex. I have Virgo Sun in the 9th. Ruler of Virgo=Mercury. I have mercury in Libra in the 10th house which makes me more serious (10th house) and diplomatic/people pleaser (Libra)

🌱 20. If you found that you “couldn’t” do what’s previously described because you’re a Leo sun, check the degree and decan of your Sun

🌸 21. I’ve noticed mercury retrograde people are the type of individuals who always know exactly the right things to say. You’ll always see them take a couple of seconds before answering but they tend to give very good responses

🌱 22. I’ve noticed many women with Virgo Venus/Sun/MC/Lilith have been slut-shamed at some point of their life or they’ve been seen as promiscuous/sexual/etc.

🌸 23. Capricorn moons are not emotionless machines. The thing with these natives is that their mothers treated them like an adult the second they came out of the womb, so basically they skipped the “love and affection” stage and went straight to the “grow up” stage, but they can love really hard and real deep (Capricorn is deep down a very sentimental sign). They are very ride or die people tbh, they are very patient, accepting and understanding

🌱 24. I've noticed that people at first deny their rising sign in Vedic astrology, but eventually they end up accepting it and they actually end up relating to it a lot. I feel like this is because our rising sign in Vedic astrology is usually the sign of our 12th house in Western astrology, which leads me to believe that our 12th house sign is not our shadow side but more like our deep subcontious personality and that's why we have a hard time accepting it when we see it as our rising sign in Vedic astrology. It's like your rising sign (in western) is the director of the play but your 12th house is the energy that previously wrote the script

🌸 25. So many celebrities have moon in the 11th house. Also this placement indicates that you had a mother that put you out there constantly like posting everything about you on social media, bringing you to big events or your mom was “famous” in some capacity

🌱26. Gemini risings tend to believe everything they are told. More specifically, once they find someone that knows a little bit more than them they’ll believe everything they teach them and will most likely rely on them intellectually, for advice, guidance, etc. This is bc they have DSC in Sagittarius which makes them see the people they associate with as masters and mentors while, as a Gemini rising, they identify as an apprentice.

🌸27. Both 8th house and 12th house have been associated with secrets. The different is that the 8th house represents what you CONTIOUSLY and deliberately hide from others and most likely deny to yourself (or not, depends on the person). 12th house on the other hand represents subconscious, things that are hidden even from you and you didn’t even know were hidden. 4th house is not necessarily secrets, it represents privacy, like when people have a sanctuary to just relax, unwind and feel secure, that’s the 4th house.

🌱28. Sun or Moon in the 4th house will make you a sociable but private person.

🌸29. Sun or moon in the 8th house will make you an intriguing and mysterious person.

🌱30. Sun or moon the 12th house makes you a very elusive or wishy-washy person

🌸31. I’ve seen many Scorpio sun/moon/mars/rising individuals obsessed with the idea of being prepared for a catastrophe. They could be the type to, for example, have some saved cash just in case something bad happens with their bank money, have a backup account just in case their main one gets deleted, could have a “leave before you get left” philosophy, etc.

🌱32. Is it just me or the astro community talks a lot about Aries moons???

🌸33. I’ve noticed people with 4th house in Virgo could have been raised in a very judgemental household where there was lots of taboos and prejudice as to what’s right and what’s not and the family was too preoccupied with a perfect and immaculate reputation. For example could have been raised with values such as “only criminals wear tattoos” or “you should stay celibate till marriage or else you’re a whore”, etc. and if the native broke those rules they could have been very criticized and almost loathed by the family. They native could have been highly criticized in general by their family

🌱34. I’ve noticed women that have their moon harshly aspecting Pluto, Uranus and Mars or overall have a very afflicted moon tend to have very painful period cramps

🌸35. Something I have noticed with Venus or Moon conjunct Saturn people is that the concept of unconditional love sounds like alien language to them. That of course doesn’t mean they can’t love but they have this deep belief that they have to achieve something in order to deserve love and stuff like that

🌱36. Also, I just noticed that people with Saturn conjunct sun/moon/Venus/ASC, Capricorn big 3 or Capricorn degrees in personal placements have gone through IT man, specially on an internal level. I've noticed going through depression is a common theme for people with this Capricorn/Saturn influence

🌸37. Virgo Suns could often struggle to find balance between having healthy ego and being humble.

🌱38. Also people with Virgo+Leo energy are the MOOOOST judgmental people out there. Imagine ego mixed with a sense of knowing what’s correct. They tend to believe they’re morally superior and easily liable people as inferior

🌸39. The underdeveloped energy of a sign asimilates negative traits of its sister sign. For example underdeveloped Virgo is overly perfectionist and judgmental to the point where they have unrealistic expectations (Pisces)

🌱40. On the other hand the developed version of a sign is balanced out by understanding its sister sign. For example Leo knows they are unique and special and deserves recognition but understands everyone is also unique in their own way (Aquarius)

🌸41. I’ve noticed a person can very easily manifest the stereotypical characteristics of the sign that naturally rules the house where their chart ruler is. For example if someone’s chart ruler (ruler of the ASC) is in the 7th house the person can easily manifest stereotypical characteristics of Libra like being a people pleaser

🌱42. Sagittarius ASC/Mars people are all fun, amicable and outgoing.... until they don’t get their way. They will get away from people and situations that won’t give them what they want and they can genuinely dislike people solely because those people don’t let them have their way. They tend to go around life like they have a free pass to get away with everything they want.

🌸43. People with ASC-Neptune aspects don’t have a very reliable vision of reality or themselves to be honest. I don’t know how people with this aspect haven’t lost their mind already. They are prone to subconsciously manipulating or easily getting manipulated. With hard aspects this is a lot more obvious but I’ve noticed with easy aspects this energy tends to go almost unnoticed and they easily get away with stuff

🌱44. Have seen many famous people with North node in the 2nd, 5th, 11th and 12th houses specially

🌸45. Air risings or air dominance with Sagittarius placements/degrees are people who love cartoons/animations/videogames regardless of their age.

🌱46. When I got into astrology I didn’t understand why Sun is in detriment in Libra, but oh man... All Libras I’ve met had HUGE issues with trusting themselves. They doubt themselves 24/7 and that’s not even an exaggeration and I’ve noticed they actually may have grown up doubting themselves for some reason or they had a family (their dad) that caused this feeling in them. Also I’ve seen that those Libras with Scorpio placements feel like they have to hide something about themselves otherwise they’ll be rejected. Yes they are endlessly charming, but that's because they have essentially created their personality around the desire of being liked/accepted. They always need to feel they have SOMEONE. Their sense of self, INDIVIDUALITY, independence and assertiveness is lost in the process. Unless they have fire and specially Aries placements to balance this out they can feel like they have no personality and that’s why they are often perceived as fake or shallow.

🌸47. Literally ALL Virgo placements one way or another will always suggest a way to solve your problems when giving emotional support

🌱48. I have a theory that, since 4th house is how you were raised, your home and your parents, your 10th house is how you’d be as a parent yourself and the type of home you’ll create yourself

🌸49. Contrary to my expectations, I’ve seen priests having a much more prominent 4th house (many times combined with 8th house/Scorpio energy) than 12th house. People with 12th house placements or stellium seem to prefer artistic fields rather than classic spirituality

🌱50. The house where you have your Pluto is a house you just can NOT take lightly EVER. This area of your life feels like a heavy topic to you in some way (you are either obsessed with it, find It traumatic, get extremely defensive over it, find it spiteful, you feel everything goes wrong, etc, etc.) Can also apply to the house where you have the sign of scorpio

🌸51. In synastry, Venus falling in the 12th house creates a healing dynamic in the relationship, the connection can feel cathartic specially for the house person. The house person might tend to always be comforted by the venus person’s support, always feel better (or even energetically “cleansed”) after being with them. The venus person never judges the house person and accepts them and is always willing to be there.

🌱52. I’ve noticed this pattern in people with mutable moons where they have absent mothers in some shape or form. Their mother is very inconsistent, she always comes and goes. Very often the native may have felt like their mother always “left them be” (virgo moon moms put restrictions but eventually are rather flexible)

🌸53. People with cardinal moons have bossy mothers. In many cases they can have the type of mother that is constantly making decisions for them, like their mother decides what/where they’re going to study for example (the house tells what type of things the mother tends to make decisions on).

🌱54. People with fixed moons have possesive and protective moms. While mutable moons have absent mothers, natives with fixed moons have mothers that are ALWAYS there in some shape or form. At the very least the influence of the mother is always there and they always have this sense of “loyalty” towards their mom.

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That's it for now, next observation post is just as long but much better, stay tuned and safe loves 💕

[whaleofatjme1920]

Hemlo! I hope your doing okay Elsie <3 Heard you were taking a break! You deserve it ;D Right, uhm I would like to request for creepypasta headcanons. Characters consists of Tim, EJ and Toby! The headcanon is them having having a s/o that writes but they’re hardcore (would parachute or like touch a cobra or sumthn XD) Yep! That’s all ;) Thank you Elsie and have a nice break! <3

Masky, Eyeless Jack and Toby with an SO that Writes but is Also Hardcore

[GN!Reader]

[Warnings: Like, none?]

[AN: I love snakes sm. They're so sweet. Also, in case you didn't see my other post - no, I'm not on break. My work is just shifting because I care much more about my uni work than this blog. I'll still be working here, just at a lower capacity.]

Masky (Written as Tim)

The amount of times Tim has to reel you in because he thinks you're going to get hurt are astounding. He would love for you to have hobbies that are more lowkey.

So, when he finds out that you're actually really into writing he's like wait what?? You're such high energy he didn't know you could sit still long enough for this.

He asks to see your writing. Doesn't want to cross boundaries on what you consider safe and yours.

When you show him, he's really surprised at your writing!! Compliments it, tells you how eloquent it is. You write about fiction, to things that happened in the day.

Loves how vivid and descriptive you can be. It's almost as if he's living the experience from your prose alone.

Eyeless Jack

He's the same way just really pretentious about it. He likes doing somewhat thrilling things but not to the extent as you. He knows about your writing habit before he even has a chance to "accidentally" stumble onto it.

Unlike Tim, he just goes in and starts reading. You'd never actually know he was in there but-

He loves your habit of journaling and how descriptive you are. It sounds like poetry in his head.

I have a feeling it's kinda like one of those aesthetic field guides and stuff. He might hint to things you can put in there. Also gets you supplies from time to time to continue writing in it.

Writing dates are a thing between the two of you and I refuse to believe otherwise.

Toby

He's just as off the wall as you are but! He doesn't really journal all that much??? I mean, I do think he has a sketch book based off of @ark-bile's in character Toby's doodles/social media. But, it's not to the extent of you.

You focus on writing much more. You write so vividly about the world around you that Toby can't help but ask at one point or another to read through it. Of course, you say yes.

Eventually, the two of you trust each other with your journals so much that he doodles cute little things in the margins (and his art skills actually grow!) and you add little descriptions or make up little stories for his doodles.

It's really sweet?? Like a couple bonding activity and generally low energy to bring the two of you down from a pretty crazy day.

It's like the most low energy thing the two of you will do and always ends in smooches and giggles.

[p-redux]

From Anon (I'm posting screencaps of the Ask instead of answering directly from my Inbox because I'm going go back and BLOCK the Anon. And I can't do that if I answer her directly from my Inbox)

*big long sigh* I’ve been here 8 years and have seen it all in this fandom. Initially, I got hate from SamCait shippers because I was the FIRST one to sink their SamCait ship and ruin their fantasy via my insider source info. They harassed, bullied, attacked me every day, all day for YEARS. Then some shippers became disgruntled ex-shippers, who still held out hate for me. Some of those disgruntled ex-shippers became Sam haters, and then new Outlander fans joined them, who also became Sam haters. All of those groups have had it out for me and continue to have it out for me. THEY will never believe anything I say, will never be satisfied with any explanation I give, nothing will ever be good enough. 

So, Anon, when you speak of “another blogger,” she’s just one more in a LONG line of people who have taken turns bashing me over the years. But I can’t give  any energy to that, because then I lose focus on my own stuff, my own blog. I used to debunk every lie posted about me, fight the good fight against bloggers attacking me. But I learned if I focused on that, it would never end. So, I try not to do that anymore. 

Because I’ve been here for so long, some of the old timers are still here, they KNOW I had sources, many more than I have now, but I DO still have sources, and I DO still have people approach me with info. Your line about me making stories up is word for word what every hater I’ve ever had has said. I don’t make anything up, Anon. I post INFO that I can verify from others. People who have been here long enough still follow me and know they can trust when I say a source is real, that it is...because I have a PROVEN TRACK RECORD. Just do a Search of my past info. It’s irrefutable. I wouldn’t still have the thousands of followers I have if I’d been “making up stories” for 8 years. If that were the case, people would have stopped following me years ago. They stick around because more often than not, I’ve come through with the goods. Simple as that. 

So, I’m still here for the people who know me and know they can trust me. People like you, and the mean girl group, and the disgruntled ex-shippers, and the remaining extreme shippers, I will never win with them, so why even bother trying? It’s a waste of time. 

When you call me out for saying I was working and couldn’t post my info about the restaurant, but I had time to answer your post. The answer is simple and obvious. It took me five minutes to answer your previous Anon Ask. It took me hours to compose my restaurant info post. Look at how long it is. I had to compile the screenshots from my source DM’s, I had to black out identifying info, I had to make sure it fit within Tumblr’s 10 pic limit, I had to make sure all my “t”s were crossed and all my “i”s were dotted because of haters, people like you, who dissect every word I write. I had to make sure my post was perfect before I posted and I couldn’t do that while I was working (I have the day off today btw, so I have a bit more time on my hands). THAT is why I didn’t post until the end of the day. If another blogger posted info prior to that, that’s not something I pay attention to. This isn’t a competition, at least not to me. 

So, Anon, if despite my LONG history of accurate insider info, fan info, info from all over the world, you don’t find me believable, then why would I waste my time trying to convince you? It’s obvious you DON’T WANT to believe me, just like Extreme Shippers DON’T WANT the truth. I have plenty of supporters who have SEEN my source info is accurate--I’m here for THEM. I can’t make any promises, but this will be the last Anon of this type I’m going to answer as long as I can. Send me anymore like these and you’ll automatically be blocked---this is obviously not the blog for you, so I’ll put you out of your misery, you won’t have to look at my blog again. My focus and energy will go to those who KNOW I post the truth, who KNOW I have sources, and who APPRECIATE what I do, and the time I take out of my, yes, VERY BUSY life, to still be here. I love you guys and I’m grateful for you more than I can express. That’s all, folks. 

[solaria222]

P I C K A C A R D

w h a t y o u n e e d

t o f o c u s o n

this is a timeless tarot reading, it can still be applicable to you regardless of when you see it. take a deep breath and ask yourself "what do i need to focus on right now?" and see which pile you are most drawn to.

P I L E 1 ||

(the video game controller)

Hi, pile 1 (´｡• ᵕ •｡`)! currently you seem very focused on yourself. your energy is like that quote, "work in silence and let your success be the noise". you've been very low-key lately. in a no-nonsense mood. you may have done some things in the past that made you worry about your decisions, you're trying to not make any mistakes. you should focus on getting your stuff together. try to relax, don't focus on all this worry you have. if you're moving to a new house, or getting a new job then focus on that as well. be patient and optimistic with your progress. don't be so hard on yourself. please clean your room. don't focus on what's lost. exciting things will unfold for you, pile one!

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self worth

the only one who gets to decide your worth is you. it doesn't come from your bank account or the number of friends you have. it doesn't come from what someone else says you are worth. it's called self-worth for a reason - it comes from being you. it comes from being yourself and being proud of who you are. it comes from being someone that you can count on and someone you love. the numbers will change with time, but what won't change is who you are deep inside - beautiful / handsome, limitless, wonderful, creative, strong, capable - and that is where your worth comes from.

(-nikki banas)

growth

everything will work out exactly how and when it's supposed to, regardless of how and when you may want it to. let your faith in the journey be stronger than your doubts and fears be patient with yourself and your growth, knowing that good things always take time. give yourself time and space to try things and explore different paths. you will get there one day, so don't forget to enjoy the journey too.

(-nikki banas)

february

august

june

8 & 7

P I L E 2 ||

(the doorbell)

Hello there, pile 2 (´｡• ᵕ •｡`). everything in your life may be a mess right now. you feel untethered somehow. you feel as if you are attracting miserliness info your life. you haven't been focusing on particularly anything as of now. (you aren't alone, pile two. i feel the same 😔) you may have been focusing on studies, responsibilities, and the likes. right now, focus on your feelings. don't ignore them. treat yourself to things you enjoy. maybe icecream. do the things you enjoy doing. (a small suggestion here : you can try one of those 30 days of happiness (◍•ᴗ•◍) ) know your worth. once you finally understand it, you'll be disgusted at the things you used to settle for. be more responsible. invest in your relationships with your family.

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start all over

it's okay to start all over its okay to start everything from the ground up. it's okay to try something brand new. sometimes we forget that we aren't stuck and that we can change our entire life in a day, in a single moment of courage. we can move to a new city, we can say hello to someone new, we can join a new group, we can start writing that book. there is no limit to the things we can do if we choose. don't be afraid to start all over, my lovely friend. this is your life. why not make it wonderfully yours?

(-walk the earth)

just breathe

pause. amidst a the busyness. dyeing the days of back to back appointments, celebrations and meetings. during the moments when life seems to be moving at one hundred miles per hour. pause. take it all in, right where you are now. reacquaint yourself with who you are. remind yourself that you're doing your best and that that is all you can do. pause. allow yourself to take a moment to stretch and fe your muscles relax. let any tension fall away. pause. take in as much as air as your lungs will allow and just breathe. you are doing better than you think.

(-nikki banas)

january

november

october

0

P I L E 3 ||

(the teacup)

Hey there, pile 3. have you been focused on money recently? you may be focused on trying to move on from an ex relationship, platonic or romantic. you're very focused on yourself at the moment. if you're spiritual maybe focus on doing some research on that. focus on your independence. persist. believe in yourself. trust that you do have the strength. don't be afraid to express yourself. this is pretty short, but you're on the right track so keep going 💀

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growth

everything will work out exactly how and when it's supposed to, regardless of how and when you may want it to. let your faith in the journey be stronger than your doubts and fears. be patient with yourself and your growth, knowing that good things always take time. give yourself time and space to try things and explore different paths. you will get there one day, so don't forget to enjoy the journey too.

(-nikki banas)

"making you happy makes me happy"

august

march

april

wednesday

"days"

P I L E 4 ||

(the paper origami bird)

heyo, pile four. your energy seems to be focused on getting resources to achieve your goals, independence and general bad bitch energy. right now, you're focusing on spirituality. (I heard that some of you have an astrology blog 👀 drop the link) you've been focusing on resting and self-care. you've been incredibly hard-working lately. you should focus more on self-care, and get some clarity. your advice is to not give up. you can do it! fight for your fairytale ending. cut off ties with people who place limits onto you, toxic or jealous people.

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free

be exactly who you want to be. be the person who stand up for themselves and their dreams. be the person who is proud of themselves and proud to be themselves. be the person who is strong and vulnerable ; wild and free. these chains could never hold someone like you, I think it's time you finally break free.

(-nikki banas)

decide

you are the only one in charge of your destiny. unfair things things may happen to you, unfortunate times may come to you, but you always get to choose how you respond. you can live in frustration and bitterness, or just be the bigger person and just play the hell out of the cards you are dealt. the truth is that not a single person can choose the cards they receive, but everyone chooses how they play their cards.

(-nikki banas)

have a great day / night! :)

aut viam inveniam aut faciam

- i will either find a way, or make one.

[my-reality-my-rules]

Hey love your blog! So I'm not sure if this has been asked already, but do you have any tips on shifting for people with intrusive thoughts? I'm new to shifting and haven't fully shifted to any of my DRs yet and I notice that a lot of the time when I'm trying to shift, my mind will start spiralling really negatively and I'll just start thinking about horrible things. It's really stressful and it discourages me and impedes on my motivation a lot. Any ideas? Thank you! Again love ur blog it has brought so much positivity to my life 💗 hope you have a wonderful day/evening ☺️

[thanks for this ask!]

i think I've answered something like this in mid-2021...but i really needed to recheck that one, so I'm glad to detail it again. here's a list of things i do. I'm not sure if they'd immediately work for you, but I'd like to think they're worth a try ((:

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(1) moment of silence // moment of mindfulness

my school uses this exercise even until today. basically, at the start of every lesson, just before/after the prayer, we would settle into a minute of silence. this is done in order to clear out any thoughts unrelated to our subject. back when we had face-to-face classes, this proved fairly effective; while it didn't work all the time, my classmates became a bit more engaged and immersed in our topics.

you just take a minute before your intended activity (whether it's shifting, visualising, scripting, etc.) and close your eyes, and breathe. do nothing else; focus only on your breathing, and feel as the air slowly moves in and out of your chest. just for one minute. while it doesn't stop the flow of thoughts, it can sort them out. the breathing might help in redirecting the intrusive ones, and center on the ones you'd progress with.

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(2) listen to subliminals

this might differ on what part of your thoughts you're trying to target (sadness, anger, daydreaming, worry, etc.). i use motivation or productivity subs for both schoolwork and shifting. put them on loop for a few minutes, and simply listen. your results may not look to be coming at the pace you want, but they're still happening. they're incredibly helpful when reprogramming your mind.

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(3) think of the cause

another thing to do is to understand just why you get those thoughts. what triggers them? how did they start in the first place? said intrustive thoughts might be due to other stresses that you probably haven't addressed—think of stuff in your CR that you feel you haven't resolved yet. I've mentioned this in a private message; you might not be aware of these current reality issues, and they would crawl back into your mind without your knowing.

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(4) try this military sleeping technique

this is actually something the shinobi in my naruto DR do! i looked this up after speaking with a younger cousin, almost as soon as i shifted back here. to my surprise, soldiers in our CR also do this!

it's a meditation/relaxation activity. basically, you have to trick your mind into falling asleep in 2 minutes. first, lie down in a comfortable position. loosen up all your muscles—all the way from head to toe; feel every inch of your body and let go of the tension you've built up. take the time you need for this, until you're at ease. if you find your mind wandering off while doing so, focus on your breathing. focus on your breathing. think of nothing else; for me, i make myself dead set on blanking everything out. sounds and sensations are separate from you in that state.

it's often mentioned that you repeat the words 'Don't think. Don't think. Don't think.' to yourself as you do this. redirect your energy, whether positive or negative, and use it to fuel your effort. if you feel as if you're starting to fail, then you might as well fail spectacularly. think of it as an all-or-nothing of sorts, but in a manner where you're set on the conviction of actually fully shifting.

personally, this has been incredibly useful. it does make me fall unconscious faster, both in my DR and CR. for the former, it helps with keeping the uglier memories at bay; that i almost immediately go to sleep prevents me from overthinking too much. for the latter, it takes my mind off other pressing events that I'm not as willing to deal with yet.

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i hope one of these tips is able to help!

much love, and happy shifting ❤️❤️